The Remarkable Way Aliveness Makes You Present
On time, fear and why facing mortality might be the most powerful presence practice there is.
ALIVENESS
A philosophy and practice for living fully in the awareness that life is finite.
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For most people, nearly half of your waking life is spent in your head. Worrying about tomorrow. Replaying yesterday. Missing the only moment that actually exists. Not because you lack discipline. Because underneath the restlessness is a fear so ancient and so buried that most people never name it.
This newsletter is about that fear, our outdated relationship with time, and why confronting the one thing most people spend their lives avoiding might be the next step in human evolution.
I used to spend most of my adult life somewhere other than where I was. Physically present, mentally elsewhere.
Anxiously planning tomorrows, replaying conversations from yesterday, figuring out future problems, managing a relentless to-do list. Does this sound familiar? Most of us do this so automatically we don’t even notice it’s happening.
However, I noticed something had shifted in me a few weeks ago. I was sitting under a tree, watching the kids playing nearby, with the world going gently by. A kind of simple bliss settling in that I didn’t manufacture or meditate my way into. Just there. The moment stretching on without me trying to hold it or improve it or plan what comes next.
My mind wasn’t somewhere else. And I realised that this had been happening more and more over the last few months since practicing Aliveness.
A 2010 Harvard study (by psychologists Matthew Killingsworth and Daniel Gilbert) tracked 2,250 people throughout their days and found that we spend nearly half our waking hours thinking about something other than what we are doing. The study found that mind wandering was a better predictor of unhappiness than the actual activity the person was doing.
We are not unhappy because of what we are doing. We are unhappy because of where our minds are while we are doing it. In short, we are almost never present… and the present is where peace can be found.
“Forever is composed of nows.” (Emily Dickinson)
This quote from Emily Dickinson echoes wisdom through the ages. Dickenson is not saying that forever is a distant destination, or that eternity is something that comes after. Forever is the accumulation of present moments. This one. And this one. And this one. The eternal now.
The only place a full life can actually be lived is here. Not in the plans you are making for next year. Not in the regrets you are carrying from last decade. Here. Now. This unremarkable Tuesday morning or Wednesday evening that feels ordinary and is, in fact, the only moment you actually have.
This is where I want to say something that most conversations about presence and mindfulness never quite reach. We have been told to be present for decades. Meditation apps, wellness retreats, breathwork classes, mindfulness curriculums in schools. “Be here now” (Ram Dass). The advice is everywhere. And yet most people are still not here. Still spending nearly half their waking hours somewhere else entirely.
Which suggests that telling, or teaching, people to be present is not enough. Because the obstacle to presence is not a lack of technique. I believe it is fear.
Think about where your mind actually goes when it wanders. Not usually into pleasant daydreams. Your mind often wonders into worry. About things that might go wrong. Money issues. Whether you are doing enough, being enough or have enough.
The Western mind has been conditioned (thanks to the Ego) to wander forward into threat and backward into regret. It is almost never neutral. And underneath all of that worry, if you trace it back far enough, is one fear. The oldest fear. The fear of ending. Of not mattering. Of running out of time.
The Terror Management Theory, one of the most significant bodies of research on this topic, has demonstrated that our fear of death shapes almost everything we do. And yet most of us are not aware of this. The fear operates quietly, underground, driving our behaviour without announcing itself.
When that fear goes unacknowledged (which happens when you live in a death-phobic society), it keeps us perpetually in the future. Always preparing. Always managing. Always trying to secure a tomorrow that will never be quite safe enough because the real threat, the one we will not name, cannot be made safe.
This is why the present is so hard to inhabit. Not because we lack discipline or the right app. Because we are unconsciously running from something we have never stopped to face.
Here is something worth sitting with: what is the difference between a Tuesday and a Saturday? Not philosophically. Actually. In reality. In the fabric of existence.
There is no difference. There is no Tuesday or Saturday. There are only words us humans invented to organise stretches of time that flow continuously without interruption. The sun does not know it is Wednesday. The present moment does not recognise the weekend.
We gave Saturday permission to feel relaxed and Tuesday permission to feel pressured. We decided collectively that some moments were for living and others were for enduring until we could live again. And in doing so, we handed over half our lives to a fiction.
You have a limited number of Tuesdays left. Not just Saturdays. Tuesdays. Ordinary, unremarkable, slightly pressured Tuesdays that feel like they don’t quite count.
They count. They are all the eternal now.
What I have found, after a year of living outside of the regular routines, is that when you genuinely make peace with the fact that your time is finite, something unexpected happens. You spend less time in the future. And with that simple shift, the quality of my sleep has dramatically improved.
I now find my mind stops running calculations quite so frantically. The worry about tomorrow fades because I am actually here today. The contentment I found recently sitting outside with my children playing is not the bliss of having solved anything. It is the feeling of not being somewhere else.
"Realize deeply that the present moment is all you will ever have. Make the NOW the primary focus of your life." (Eckhart Tolle)
Eckhart Tolle, one of my favourite philosophers, has spent decades teaching people to be present. Mindfulness has spent fifty years teaching the same. Both practices are extraordinary and I believe in them deeply.
What Aliveness adds is the why. And when you understand the why, when you face the fear underneath the wandering mind, presence stops being something you practise and starts being something you inhabit.
Mindfulness calms the mind.
Aliveness tells you what the mind is running from.
Together they are more powerful than either one alone.
There might be a bigger idea underneath all of this.
Humanity has evolved physically. We have evolved intellectually. But our relationship with time has barely changed since we started to disconnect from nature centuries ago. We are still running the same fear-based operating system. Still living mostly in a future that does not exist, driven by a fear we will not name.
The next evolution may not be technological or biological. It may be conscious. A collective reimagining of our relationship with time. With mortality. With the present moment as the only place life actually happens.
Finitude is not the enemy of a full life. It is the condition that makes a full life possible. When we finally understand that, not as an idea but as a felt truth, everything changes. Not just for individuals. For the species.
That is the vision of Aliveness is building toward.
The Aliveness Practice is is something simple you do every morning, every week, every year. A daily returning to the only moment that exists.
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One question this week.
Where does your mind go when it wanders?
Follow it back to its source. What is it actually afraid of?
Sit with that answer.
That is where the practice begins.
Thank you for being here. Don’t postpone your life.
Live happy,
Hoppy
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